Eventually Finally Came…

Eventually Finally Came…

So I’ve been telling myself all summer that I’ll get on here and write, and update everything. It just took me until November….haha oh well.

Gosh where to start. I didn’t end up needing surgery, and I trashed my book and started over, twice.  I am near finishing and this time it all makes sense and is something I can actually be proud of enough to show another human being. I didn’t realize how out of it I had been, not until July/August when this fog finally lifted from my mind. I hadn’t even realized it but I hadn’t been myself in over a year. I was more mellow, antisocial (more so than usual), tired, and in constant pain. Nothing I wrote was good, it was half done and half thought through. Although thankfully most of it was salvageable. So moral of the story try your best, even if you have to redo things later.

I have a new Primary class, all girls this time. There is so much drama. It’s a weird age group some are four turning five and others five turning six. They get along pretty well, but sometimes the six year olds act younger than the four year olds. I love all of them but I’m so glad none of them are mine. I am sooo not ready to have a 4-6 year old.

So I had a funny realization the other day; I’ve never been asked out by a guy. I’ve asked guys out and gone on blind dates that friends set up, but I’ve never actually been asked out. It doesn’t bother me so much as it frustrates me. I just don’t get it at all. I get cat calls, and groups of guys hitting on me (which was actually kind of scary, I’ll have to tell you about it later) and weird guys hitting on me but even with all that none of them ever ask me out, no one asks me out! Are guys really so afraid of being rejected? It’s scary for girls too…although the first guy I ever asked out I wished he would have rejected me, because he ended up being a “nice” jerk. A nice jerk is a guy or girl who is nice to their friends and seems nice to everyone else but is really a jerk. Anyway someday I hope I meet someone with enough courage to ask me out, in person (I did have a guy send me a multiple choice ‘if I asked you out what would you say’ over facebook…I don’t count that as asking me out especially since he never did anything or mentioned it after I answered back).

I think I’m just rambling now…

Anyone else have problems with guys or am I alone in this?

Why is dating so hard?

Well Goodnight! Chat with y’all soon. 🙂

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